zebra little mumble

Rx
Sambal 15ml
White pepper 50g
Fish curry 5ml
Sodium Chloride 5g
Soy sauce qs

1. Left over of sambal is used.
2. Dissolve 50g of white pepper into 15ml of sambal and add 5ml of fish curry into it.
3. Triturate well until it becomes a paste.
4. Dilute the paste with 5ml of soy sauce and add in 5g of sodium chloride as the emulsifying agent.
5. Mix well and top up the volume til 30ml with soy sauce.
6. Transfer the preparation in some one’s mouth.
7. Label and send that fella into hospital nearby.

Remark:experiment done and tested by Siva et.al

(that’s how we do our pharmaceutical practicals in lab, except all the ingredients are drugs!)

Supposedly my class should starts on next Monday according to our dear college admin. Reuben, our former class rap has confirmed with him twice and he gave the same answer which is on 5th of October. But then, Reuben got a call from our batch coordinator on Tuesday morning asking why aren’t any of us in the class since Monday the 28th? He actually called alot of us including me that evening but I didn’t know about it until 10 something at night because the stupid phone battery has died, again, even if I didn’t use it. He wants to see us in the class the next morning. But as expected by ourselves, most of the classmates won’t show up because they don’t expected the class to starts so early! Most of them still in their hometowns! Therefore, on Wednesday, only 6 of us appeared. The next day was better, 16 of us. Then today was even better, 19 of us! But this three days not much teaching are  going on since there’s still got a few absent.

I’m still wondering whether or not I should stay in hostel. Considering the price of the Rapid bus has gone up and almost 5 out of 7 days I have to go home late since Monday to Friday my classes all end at 4.30pm. There will be traffic jam on the road and even in the train and bus.  I wanted to move out also because I really need some privacy! Although own room is more comfortable but I feel that there’s no privacy anymore. I don’t wish to talk about why. But if I move into hostel, I need to share the room with 2 other people, either with Yasha or people that I don’t know. The room is a triple sharing room because the scholarship only cover for the cheapest room available. It will be hot and stuffy and there’s no safety assurance on my belongings.

So, anyone can really give me any suggestion?

今天原本心情还好好的!结果傍晚来了一封简讯,搞到你祖母我很不爽!

那个老头不懂有那一条神经线进风?!突然传了封简讯给老公,要他买一辆车给我,不然就每个月帮我供RM436!他为什么这么说呢? 因为他不爽每次都看见车里有老公在!刚才下午出去时刚好”擦车而过”,我当然是载着老公啦!他都没驾照!那老头子又不爽咯!反正他什么都不爽的啦!

你他妈的不爽,老娘更不爽咯!妈吊!你可以发神经我就不可以发神经啦?!你要发神经的话我会比你更神经一百倍!他有能力的话一定供啊!可是他现在只是做part time而已叻!怎么又供车又缴房租啊?!你他妈要想钱也用脑想好来点嘛!说什么狗屁烂趴话?!说为我好为我好….我看他凡事都在想钱跟面子罢了吧?!不认识他的人不要跟我说一堆鸡掰话!因为你们根本不认识那老头子!

你不是要发神经?好!我就发神经给你看!开学我立刻搬进宿舍!那辆烂车你看你要卖掉还是丢掉随便你!反正我就是不理了!还要再神经一点的话是吗?等我真的发飙起来我立刻驾着那辆车去撞墙!最多来个同归于尽!我说到做到!不要挑战我的忍耐限度!人的限度是有限的!

你们永远只看到他是个穷光蛋!可是你们永远就是看不到他对我有多好!有多重要!现在没钱不代表以后没钱!就算现在有钱以后还是会没钱!这个男人我是跟定了!就算以后呸口水讲过,散了,我也不会后悔这个决定!

何谓幸福呢？
穷的时候一起挨面包？
有钱的时候一起去吃好料？
下雨时他拿雨伞遮你？
自己却淋着雨，还怕你着凉？
当你难过的时候，他从你背后搂着你？
当你哭时他也难过得想哭？
还是晚上睡觉时，你热得睡不着，他虽然也很悃，但还帮你扇风，让你能够凉快，你却已经睡得很香甜了？
我不知道这算不算幸福，但我内心觉得是。

Finally able to online again after so many days streamyx died!

There are so many things I wanted to blog down in this couple of weeks but now when I finally on wordpress I’ve forgotten everything.

It’s been 2 weeks I’m having final exam for sem 2. Which means after this final exam I’ll be in sem 3 and then 1 more semester to go before I go for practical in either private or government hospital. That would be approxiamately 1 years to go. Usually the college will place us in government hospital but in my case, I might apply to Tung Shin because I got the scholarship from there. That’s next year problem.

I really don’t understand why this year has been so troublesome! It’s the most disastrous year so far in my life! Wish I can run away from all of this!

Yesterday I did a mistake which I’m so sorry for that and hopefully they will not be blind and stupid and everything will be fine. If not, it’s not happy for everyone if I stay there anymore.

I’ve been thinking of changing work place since I first started there, it’s not a place I wanted continue working anymore. The idea appears stronger since yesterday. And darling also noticed that I’m not happy working there. Furthermore, starting 1st of September the bus fare will be increased from RM2 to RM5 from KL Sentral to PBD. I might as well drive to PBD because after I did the maths mentally, it’s cheaper for me to drive there then take public transport now compare to pre-increased public transport fees! If I drive to PBD, then I donno how to go Mid Valley coz it’s not very convenient and the parking fees are quite expensive. Nevertheless, I’m still thinking about it.

My phone is gone, technically. So I’m using my dad’s old Nokia phone and it’s really useless. Aside from it has color, basically it’s useless. The phone will shut off by itself for reason I don’t know, the call will ends abruptedly or the line will be interrupted, and the battery used off quite fast. Darling promised to buy a new one for me but I still don’t know whether I want to let him buy it or not. I scare later not enough money to use again at the end of month. Yet if he buys I’ll still be very happy to have a new phone! Lol!

I’ve been crying yesterday night till darling was shock and later he told me that he felt so heartache to see me cry and wanna cries along with me. That’s so sweet. And then this morning he apologised to me suddenly, saying that he can’t give me any money to spend as I wish but I have to suffer with him. Though it’s kind of suffering for being poor and no money to use at the  end of every months, but that’s just a minor problem, as long as he’s by my side. Next month 18th is his birthday, the present I basically already gave him. 23th is our 2nd anniversary I still can’t figure out what to give him. Any idea?

先别高兴得那么快！电话是老公买的，可是钱我先付。。。无所谓啦，反正我也很兴奋！哈哈哈哈哈哈！是K770I，3。2百万相素。。。不错喽！蛮漂亮的！
老公骗人的！买之前说：“新的你先用咯！”结果。。。。旧的给回我，新的自己用！哼！大炮！K618卖了，大概RM120，那架机是RM480，扣掉我trade in那架K618只是需要付RM360罢了！美美一架新机啊！
这两天老公不懂怎么，自从梦见我怀孕后，就一直很兴奋，看到小bb就一直逗人家玩！很想生一个，可是现在又不能。。。昨天他说，bb小的时候可爱，变成大孩子后就很讨厌了。我说：“那你丢掉啦！”哈哈！以为是小狗咩？说丢就丢！狗都不可以乱丢了，更何况是自己的孩子！所以生小孩这件事，是需要很认真的考虑，才能决定的！不然只会连累到小孩而已。
今天不知道怎么搞的，一直打喷嚏，鼻涕就一直流个不停！不懂是不是H1N1呢！明天如果还是伤风的话就得去看医生了。可是我怕他要我隔离一个星期耶！那不如要了我的命？我会闷死耶！虽然可以专心读书，可是不能跟老公见面啊！!我不要！！
最近我已经搬回家住了，虽然很麻烦，但是没有办法咯。。为了老公跟妈咪。。。我也跟老爸说话了，可是语气偶尔还是有点不好，他们都说慢慢来咯。。。还能怎样？我只能搬回来，然后想老公咯。。。。

做工后每天都超累的！没有一天上课时不会打瞌睡的！

这两个星期上课时我都坐在椅子上摇摇晃晃（因为打瞌睡，所以假假在那边动来动去，摇来摇去！哈哈！）Jennifer跟后面的都快被我烦死了！可是没办法，我不摇的话我怕我真的睡着然后倒下去，到时就出丑了！洗了脸也是会打瞌睡的。。。唯一的办法就是跟Jennifer传纸条，聊一些有的没的，才会精神点。。。我看我上课打瞌睡，Mr. Mani应该是发觉到了，不然的话他不会叫我读那些slides,还问我问题的。每天晚上都12点才睡，一早又要起床上课，不累就假！

其实我很不明白，做promoter只需要站，偶尔给客人一点意见，帮客人找衣服，收拾衣服等等罢了。。。为什么还是那么累呢？看看其他人又好像不会累似的？真的不明白。。。不过还好，之前刚开始脚时常站到痛，现在不大会了（除了星期六，因为要站一整天！）。只是，我的肩膀到现在还是很痛！应该是那个包包太重的关系吧？我把files跟水壶都放在里面。。。不重就假！谁可以帮我按摩按摩一下？

现在，很烦恼三件事。

第一件事是钱。还要等两个星期才有钱，可是现在所剩不多了，怎么撑两个星期呢？好像才剩50多块。。。两个人用耶！看来没有办法，又要跟妈咪拿了。我真得很不想再伸手跟她拿钱了！

第二件事是车，那老头子说不要再供车了，可是他又不拿去卖！三个月后如果车被拖走，我的名字就会被银行列入黑名单！以后就不能再借钱买车买房子了！问题是，我都还没21岁，为什么能以我的名字借钱的？车也是我的名字。。。我可以说列入黑名单就列入吧！要买车买房子的话放老公的名字就行啦！可是如果老公不要我了呢？那就叫做一无所有咯！

第三件事是微微，身为好朋友，在这个时候什么忙也帮不上！我要忙着去上课，又要忙着去做工。只能传简讯或打电话给她，可是她都很少回复我。问她什么事她都不是很想说，我更加不懂要怎么帮她了！现在她妈妈会怎样做，那个贱男人到底想怎样，她会不会想不开，我一点概念都没有。。。。唉。。。

上个星期三开始做工了，在Mid Valley的Labelz。

不懂是不是很久没有做工的关系，现在站一下就觉得脚痛了。而且腰也痛、肩膀也痛！不过虽然还是很痛，但跟上个星期比起来没那么痛了。

在那边做工蛮累的，因为不管是星期几，都是那么得多人，有些人甚至等你要关门了都不甘愿走！那边的同事都还好啦。。。连我在内共有五个人罢了。可是当他们四个聚在一起时，我就好像被排斥似的，很想换别一间店做，干脆换到老公那边做最好！嘻嘻！可是他怕如果我转过去的话，他不会做工了！哈哈！他说先做多一两个月先咯，如果真的不喜欢的话才换咯！也好。。。不然被人家讲。。。

如果你们要去我做工的那间店买衣服的话，我无任欢迎！因为那边的衣服满便宜的，只不过它的布料都超级薄！内衣内裤都会看到！可是衣服都很漂亮啊！害我心痒痒也想买！不过我有30巴仙折扣，你们没有！哈哈！但是现在大减价，有些漂亮的裙啊衣服啊，都有扣50巴仙哦！

我现在除了拜五之外，几乎每天都有做。星期一到星期四从六点做到十点，一放学就去了。只是有时早放学，而老公还没的话，我就在sooka上网等他咯！而星期六呢就做整天，反正在家又没东西做，出去又没钱。。。礼拜天就从早上十点做到晚上七点咯！很累哦！几乎每天在学校都打瞌睡！可是没办法，不做的话哪里来的钱呢？等下四点老公放学我们就去mid valley了，早到的话就去吃点东西咯，不然我们都去逛逛！

突然想起昨晚看一部英文戏，有个修女对一个小女孩说：“ If you woke up one day, you can’t think of anything except writing, then you can become a writer. If you woke up one day and find that you can’t think of anything but singing, you sing!” 然后我就想：“if i woke up one day, or should i say everyday, what i can think of is to continue sleeping, should i sleep? And sleep forever? That will be great i guess!”哈哈！

H1N1越来越严重的感觉，我们学校有两个老师和两个学生中招了！今天学校还派口罩呢！我的朋友感觉上也好像中招了，她已经发烧了几天耶！她说等下去验血，希望只是普通发高烧吧？刚才上HOD的课时，我们问他学校几时才停课，他说等他中了H1N1才说哦！去。。。。还以为有得放假一星期呢！

The whole world is so shock that Michael Jackson, The King Of Pop has passed away on the 25th of June 2009 because of cardiac arrest. Many people, especially his die-hard fans, hoped that it was just a joke. Me and darl not his fans but we too thought that it was some lame joke spreading through the net. Yet it is true that he has passed away.

The world has loss a great singer and great dancer, and I think that no one in this world will ever replace him regardless of what he did wrong (or so somebody thinks)… Nevertheless we can’t ignore what he has contributed to the world of music. Youngsters from 70s till now like to imitate his special dances especially Moon Walk, created by MJ himself and is popular even till now.

I’m not his fans, but I dare to say that we all grew up listening to his songs! Now that he’s dead, we don’t have the opportunity to listen to him singing and dancing anymore. We can only remember him through his albums and watch his past concerts recorded. Too bad that he cannot even fulfill his dream of having the last concerts throughout the globe. It will be held starting next month and many are waiting for his great performance. It was not postponed but cancelled for ever.

What else can I say? Rest in peace MJ.

那些钱好像跟我有仇似的。四百多快的账单还没还，两百块的罚单还没缴，刚刚又中招！多一张罚单！同样的地方-学校。

今天逼不得已驾车去上学，以为他前天来开了罚单，今天应该不会来的。怎知道。。。天啊！我的压力已经很大了，为什么还要一直折磨我？

家里要面对的压力非常的大，每天都要面对所有人的脸色。现在，我养成了一个很不好的习惯，每次当她们在聊天时，我的耳朵就会很自然的坚起来，听他们又再说我什么坏话。我很不想听！可是就会很自然的去听。当然很多时候都听不清楚他们说什么，但不用说一定是又在以她们自认的定义在批评我了。真的真得很烦。

有时真得很想一走了之，但因为种种的原因，令我走不了。很想跟老公一起搬出去，可是一定会被所有人讲我不要脸，跟人同居！可是我宁愿被你们讲我也不想再跟你们住在一起！要不然迟早有一天我会突然疯掉！我不是没想过自己另外租一间，可是这样又很浪费钱，两个人一起分担不是省很多吗？唉。。。他也不是不想搬，只是没钱搬！一间房两百多不是给不起，只是第一个月就需要给两个月的钱，一下子去那里生那么多钱出来啊？现在手头又那么紧。。。。真的应证了一句话：“钱不是万能，但没钱就万万不能！”

虽然压力很大，大到真的想死了算了，但还好由老公跟朋友们在。就算心情再怎么不好，跟朋友聊聊、开开玩笑，压力就减少很多了。尤其是老公，他总是有办法逗我开心，还好有他在，不然我已经死几千遍了！

唉。。。如果现在有一千块的话，我想问题就解决一大半了！可是要等很久。。。谁会那么好心，先借我一千块呢？